Once again.. Death came knocking on our door..

Been 12 days since Ah ma left us.. my heart sank on that Friday when I tested her positive for Covid-19. I agreed that it's a disaster before it really hits us.. but now.. it's not just a disaster.. It's a nightmare we cant wake up from.. She's there... playing sparkles with Charlotte on Mid-autumn Festival night.. Smiling..  

Isolation is a word which she cant comprehend.. even when she s still walking.. she had us.. but on her death bed.. nobody could be near.. we are miles away.. on the screen.. some even just 2 doors away.. yet she needed us the most.. how could we? 

I have been given a second chance.. yet i did not do anything right.. so I should be punish for the rest of my life.. I'm sorry.. you did nothing wrong to deserve this disease..

Imy

I love you so much like you always love me, no matter what..

Thanks for being my first teacher and bringing me up.. thanks for telling me it s ok to look like myself.. thanks for telling me I deserve to be loved and have the ability to love.. thanks for loving my girls.. Thanks for being my ah ma for 36 years.. 

I hope you are with mummy now.. in a better place.. 

I wanna be your daughter and grand daughter again.. 很久很久的那种。