Sunday, December 30, 2018

2018 hasn't been great.. 2019 please be better to me..

It's time for reflection again..

2018.. 
Yet another tough year with a hint of self-created sweetness spread across..
For the past few decades of my life.. I haven been in such a situation before..
When bank account is always empty.. and debts are just making me breathless..
Glad everything is over and I am finally back to buying things for myself with my hard earned money whenever I like..

Happy stuff now :)
My girls are growing up day by day.. healthy and happy..
That s all I can wish and be grateful for everyday..
Been to 3 concerts (Jay, Donglihouche, David Tao).. 
1x Sister trip to Melbourne, 2x family trips to Hangzhou and Kuching, 2x business trips to Jakarta.. 
Time flies away as fast as I can imagine.. 

2018 resolutions:
- went to A&E again.. and multiple visits to PD and specialist.. failed again.. totally..
- checked
- checked
- checked 
- checked
- stable is good.. but I am putting my hopes up in 2019
- checked
- still not there yet
- checked
- better luck in a few years later.. probably

2019 resolutions:
- Be healthy (*guessed I will again leave it at the top of my list)
- Love my little happy family
- Spend more time with grandma, 3.1 and monsters
- Be a great and hot mummy
- Get a little more sleep and some me-time whenever possible
- Earn more $$$
- Be and love myself
- Learn to be a wife and mummy at the same time
- 3rd Sisters-only Vacation
- Have a place of our own

For the entire year.. I only met him once.. 
Yet I din get to see him clearly or exchange words.. 
Did he age a lot like everyone said so?
Did he lose weight?
Is he sick or has he been well so far?
Guessed I wont get any answers unless I ask them myself..
Forgive me.. I dunnno when I'll get over it.. or ever gg to... 
As far as I am concerned.. I just wish he s well and happy with his life now..

How are you?
I barely rem dreaming of you.. nor recall your voice..
But I still can vividly rem the touch of your cold body.. 
Your expression when I have to leave you alone all the time...
I miss you.. as always..

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