Goodbye and Hello again.. New Year New me!

2017 resolutions:
- insane resolution every year.. never once got it checked..
- destroyed..
- checked :D
- checked :D
- i guessed so.. 50% tops..
- checked :D
- checked :D
- a total failure..

2017..
a tough year.. I lost you..
I have lots of regrets.. yet i dun dare to admit..
I have been running.. I dunno if you would like me treat him this way..
I m always thinking of what will you think if I do this and that..
Irony.. you are not around anymore..
So nothing really matters..
As much as I wanna hold on.. I realized I din have anything left..
So why bother..
I wish I din hurt you, neglect you, love you more when you are right beside me..
well well.. everything is easier said than done..
I guessed I am your nemesis..

I did my best to cope with everything.. yet I achieved nothing..
So I am not repeating my mistakes again..
Time to focus on myself..

2018 resolutions:
- Be healthy (*guessed I will still leave it at the top for the moment)
- Love my little happy family
- Spend more time with grandma, 3.1 and monsters
- Be a great and hot mummy
- Get a little more sleep and some me-time whenever possible
- Earn more $$$
- Be and love myself
- Learn to be a wife and mummy at the same time
- 2nd Sisters-only Vacation
- BFFs' 2-decades Vacation

Begin 2018 with the first Jay's concert this sat..
Hope it is a great start to everything..
No more dwelling on things which are meant to be..
No more hurting..
Still missing you..