You left.. imy

been 10 days since you let go of our hands..
regret is the word I have yet to bring up..
when will I ever be able to forgive myself..
when will I ever be able to rem what is the last sentence you said to me..
when will I feel your hug again..

I hate to leave you alone with a stranger..
I hate to see you getting weaker each day..
I hate myself when I have to ask you to repeat multiple times yet I still can't figure out what are you trying to say..
I hate to be the one who have to say no to you all the time..
I hate myself when I have to say bye and when I will be coming again..
Maybe that's why I dun have the chance to see you for the last time..
Maybe that is why you punished me with the burns and scar to remind me of my wrongdoing..
What should I do now?
What can I do now?

I need to be strong for everyone..
I need to make all the decisions..
I need you to hug me.. and tell me everything's gonna be alright..

Imy, mummy.