Life and Death

Being alive isn't one's choice..
Maybe death can be a choice..
Yet it might not always be there..
After 60, 80 years.. are you ready to leave this world?
How do you intend to do so?
Who do you wish to see before you leave?

Suffering.. been so many years..
Yet I am still helpless..
Why is there no alternative in this high tech era?
Is this it? Time to let go and give up?
Why is every option associated with pain?
How can I lose you without being there till the last breath?

Seriously..
Exhaustion.

I wish I can be the nicer one..
I wish I can respect your decision to do nothing and wait for death to visit unexpectedly..
But I can't. How could I?
I am sorry.. If you need to blame/hate someone.. I will be the one.
I love you. I duno what more can I do.
Can someone tell me?