Tidal Waves

Never ending.. Like tidal waves..
Everything enters my life in a combo..
In and out of clinic.. problems which I cant share with anyone..
I m back to being alone..
Me, myself and I..

Tried so hard to manage everything on my own..
Yet now.. I am back to square one..
Once again.. I let you in.. sneaking back into my vulnerable self with you around..

Biting my lips so hard till it bleed..
I need to learn all over again..
Though I din manage to accomplish previously.. like eating and sleeping..
Recently, sleep becomes the top major issue to eliminate.. I barely slp at all..
I need to sleep!!! cos I become a hazard on the road..
So dangerous tt I m so afraid of driving..

No one to run to when I m crying..
No one to hug me when I am sad..
I wish I can hug myself.. duplicate another me now.. & give myself a BIG HUG..

It is not tt I wanna place everything on my shoulders..
I am a human.. a girl.. I wish there s someone to run to when I really cant hold my tears..
But there is no one at the other end to run to..
So I am on my own.

As much as I wanna cling on to you so tightly..
Cos you are the only one I wanna run to.. and hug me tightly..
I need to let you go..