Once Again

Been awake for more than 30 hrs..
Mind and body isn't within my control anymore..






It s the first time I am in the ambulance.. and the feeling sucks to the max!!!




Guessed this is the reason why I am not able to leave..
I need to be with you..
OMG.. I totally freaked out when I saw blood stains everywhere and the towel soaked in blood..
Yet I maintained super calm to make the 995 call..

I am sorry.. I should not have raised my voice..
But someone there should have called first instead of waiting for me to run over..
I just dun get it..
I am sorry.. I broke down..
At that point of time.. I dun understand why do we have to go temple today..
When you chose not to be admitted and came home..
I need to ensure your safety.. and be around you..
I need to be strong.. when there isn't anyone else to depend on anymore..
Once again.. I am back to where I am 2 yrs ago.. alone.