EMO-ing

Have you ever felt you have no control in life?
I understand tt Life is like Gambling.. You wont always WIN..
But.. i did lose deliberately.. I jus need to have more self-control..
我好高骛远吗？ Juggling too many things @ one time..
In the end.. I fell apart.. Wondering why m I so incapable...

I hate regreting.. the feeling jus tears me into pieces..
& I really need a damn long time to recover.. or lose count of the days i m still in it..
Tt s why i do want i thinks tt it s right.. DO wat I DESIRE..
So i minimize the risk of falling into the BIG D >> Depression!!!

Let me fill you with my piece of mind..
Currently.. i damn sick of developing my career.. I know. it s jus 1 n a half yrs only...
I still got a long way to go... It s a silly thing to hold it for the time being..
NoBody likes to work.. when they need to..
NoBoby likes to study.. when they are supposed to..

I m NoBody.. I like things opp..
I wanna see flying color in my 日本語's results..
I m nt a Perfectionist.. But i m almost there..

Should i change to a less demanding job and complete my 日本語 with fireworks?
Am i able to give up all my current fireworks happening in my career?

"You" would say.. I can stay the same.. & remain my status..
But I jus need to be more self-discipline and STUDY when I'm supposed to..
My Heart.. You are RIGHT.. I will show myself the results I WANT!!!
My Mind.. STOP thinking of foolish ACts!!!
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